Sincere apology.. to all the involved parties

To think.. that.. i had ended.. up.. being.. a wuss all the time.. I admit.. to have.. being persistence.. on something that is already ended.. i'm going to change all this.. facts.. to tell myself.. that i live.. for god.. and not.. for myself.. I ought to remember.. that the almighty lord.. is there for me.. I must.. be strong.. This is not only my life... I shall act as a grown up.. to keep reminding myself.. of which voice to hear..

Special thanks.. to all my frens.. who has help me.. this far... keep encouraging me.. to cheer up.. to obtain a different road.. in my life.. i will remember this forever.. please.. accept my sincere apology to every1... *bow*.. and auntie, uncle as well... sorry...

This post will mark a new beginning of myself.. Please stay tuned.. for more update..! Thank you.. =)

The.. wisdom of love

I'm going to admit that.. i could hardly.. handle.. any more.. impact.. to my love life.. It so hurt.. n the feeling is very confusing.. to think that u will be able to live without food and water because of love..

e.g>> my stomach is.. groaning.. n i haven not take my medicine yet..

Mayb.. the love that im seeking for.. is not there anymore.. the only thing that convince me is my dream.. I dream bout her every nite.. n it has been the 5th days. Each of them.. shows how happy.. we are. Living.. peaceful under the same roof. I don feel like saying this but.. i miss her every single minutes. To whom.. that think this is temporarily.. i do hope.. we are right.

Btw.. i learn.. how to trust her.. more den ever now.. i hope she noticed this.. because.. im trying my best.. in doing so.. to change.. the one who i am now.. Please.. my lord.. give me the strength to do so.. amen..!

10 reason..

10 reason why u should accept me back =)

1. The weather is crying for us
2. I dream about u for the past 2 days
3. My heart is calling for its queen to come back
4. We play sdox.. n we enjoy it being together..
5. I will learn to appreciate u in the future..
6. I will be a man! Lols
7. I will remain.. to be on your side all the time..
8. The feeling will not fade even after thousand of years.
9. We enjoy watching movie together.. The cinema ad on author's days.. is reminding me of u..
10. I love you.. n i will promise.. this time will be a lifetime..
    

2nd days..

Leaning to the wall. I noticed how foolish am i. I skipped your blog so many time that i forget to look for your hidden message. U have so many thing to tell me, but I'm not there for you. I really wish the time will just turn back.. n let me solve everything.. I really do.. but i know there is no turning back

Seeing how we met each other, the difficulties we have pass through.. is.. a matter of time.. that we forget everything.. Honestly, i do.. not want the feeling to vanish.. The love we share.. the treasure we found.. is still there.. right infront of us.. but we are leaving.. it to let others have it..

Yesterday, i bulk my self up, to be strong.. to show no weaknesses.. entirely.. to have u back by my side. I want to give u security. I want u to know, that I will change, just for u. I trusted that.. god want me to pursue u back. I got a dream about u for 2(s) nites. which is a sign i believe.. all about our future.. Even the god is crying for us.(weather)

*My internet has been down since last nite.. until this morning.. ._.

We share so many thing in common before. I wish that we will share more in the future. If.. I mean "if" we had this chances.. to be reunited back, I promise that this is my last chances. I will not waste this opportunity to lose u again. I dunnoe if u will read my blog.. but still.. this a piece of feeling.. that i wanted to tell u.. I din mean to force u.. I love you n i promise u this. I wont do something silly that could hurt.. myself.. =) i will be strong.. N i will rebuild my image.. back in the old me.. the ones.. that.. we both are looking for..(Husband)!

Im.. sorry

Erm.. well.. jst to make it all.. back to normal.. i will stand still on my foot.. i will not cry over this thing anymore.. i will learn to be.. some1.. who can stand.. above others.. sorry.. to all the side.. that get hurt.. i reli sorry.. for this.. =).. and also thx the support from.. my fren too.. its reli.. reli helpful xD

Road of love = passion + perseverance

A deep apologise to my friend.. and my other side(Jessie liew) too.. Indeed.. i have not been accessing my blogspot.. until today.. where i almost lose something important.. something.. tat is irreplaceable in my heart.. The life.. has so called perfect.. is now a question mark for me.. the pain and the suffer that i feel can't be explain by words or even by action itself.. It is merely a confusion or even a trial for me to pass through.. I can't sleep at all since ytd n wat i can tell is..

I need u to be back ..

I start to notice that.. the life.. without u.. is not me anymore.. I was.. thinking about u all the time.. For instance, Where are u.. What are u doing.. Did u wake up early this morning..? and etc.. When i look back at our photo.. i can't stop.. i jst need to see more.. I am just wondering.. mayb.. the fight we have earlier.. is rather another trial.. for us jump over.. But still.. IM SORRY! truly.. im Sorry.. I know talking rude/harsh could mean the end of our relationship.. i had been flashing back all those word that i had shoot out.. and today.. When i Look Back.. Non of them.. could replace u in my heart.. I just want u to know.. that.. im regretting everything.. especially.. the bad thing.. tat i myself could prevent..

I had really.. tried.. my best.. n i will try harder.. Please believe.. in me.. as i will do everything to keep this relationships.. im not looking back to the past.. rather.. i will look to the present and future.. I would bring ourselves.. a new hope.. the portrait of a happy time.. There is only me holding ur hand and keep u warm..

Sincerely Deep down in my heart.. U are the only one that i would married no matter what happen.. N i hope.. u understand it.. as its a promise of lifetime.. Please.. give us a new beginning.. a new hope start over.. I really need this chances.. i will do whatever i can.. to give u happiness.. to give u security.. that u needed.. I could ensure this because.. i need ur love back too.. I want u to know today.. is our 13th monthasory.. mayb not or mayb yes.. But.. i hope.. there is also 14,15,16,17 or even 1xxxth monthasory.. that we going to pass through..


I LOVE YOU 13th 14th ! (4ever and ever)..
Please let me have this chances to celebrate this 13th and 14th monthasory with u.. I really need u to be back =(

*P.s I start to notice that.. The problem might arise because.. i'm locked in my house too much..

Happy Monthasory!!!

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!!!

Im so back in here wakakakakaka =p! sorry for the late update as recently i had lost my password which is a total dismay for me. However it seem that the lady luck was at my side. I manage to found it somewhere inside my Hotmail account n this allow me to update it as soon as i can ^^.

Well as stated on the post title.. I reli wonder if monthasory word really exist in the dictionary but.. in my opinion its exist in every1 hearts.. Do u still remember the day wher u get born n there ur family will celebrate ur 1 months birthday which is quite a memorable experience to us to prove our very existence. I would say tat the same thing goes to the newborn of a couple as well. Who knows where we will start to lost track of time n theres is somewhat a reminder or sweet memory to keep us awake.

Honestly, im a short-term attention kinda ppl~ where my memory will fly out of my head after a few days of holiday. I lost track of my date, time n everything until yesterday where I just pass a wonderfull nite with my aiai again. Without her... my life was nvr tat sweet.. added with all the conversation... and also the heartily feel to each other.. I did wonder.. did i deserve such a treatment??.. no! >.<

Ok spoiler starting here again.. For those who are not great on withstanding those kinda gross thing... its btr if u don continued reading it wakkakakakaa =p



~ well tis was to be directed to my beloved 1 ^^

HAPPY 1,2,3,4th monthasory my Aiai!!!! U might be blurred by the number but well hehe tis was because... it is not reli the months tat we had been together that matter...Rather it was the process that we had been going throught... the sadness,hapiness, as well as the... miss.. the urge.. or well... the feeling... that we always share... together.. longing for ur hug... ur warm embrace is nvr a good things for me.. the miss was overwhelm to the limit of the sky.. and the depth crossing the great sea..i wonder.. how long could i stand here.. in the normal ground without flying to ur side... actually tis 4 months we had been together... i had been always the devil 1 n u.. are the only angel by my side.. tat always protect me to prevent me from going to the dark road.. u cover me with ur love... n the unended spirit which make feel tat nothing is impossible>.< I make such lot of promise to u.. but sometime.. i jst forget some of it n done it repeatly.. Im sorry my dear... i reli dunnoe why it could be tat way.. but.. for sure.. i belib each quarrel we going throught could lead us to a btr understanding toward each other.. as i start to learn something new from there.. why??... i mean why im so selfish.. that i always hurt u... make u sad.. make u feel guilty n everything.. actually deep in my heart... i cannot stop but tearing for u my Aiai.. im reli sadd.. when theres is something happen btw us.. especially something that could affect our relationship..

The tiredness might be overwhelm but.. I know that the life that goes without u is going to be even worse.. no1 is going to accompanied me during my hard time.. i mean no1.. will be there for me to "sek/sayang" >.<... so... to cover n to protect u... i hereby stand infront of throne of love once again to gib u a promise that i would nvr leave u... 4ever n ever... the life could be barred with thorns but.. i will just step over it.. n manage it somehow to get u by myside.. i wan u to know tat.. my hearts is now urs.. the love.. the memory.. was always be us.. n there is no "me" or "i" anymore... i know.. the words.. is so hard to be prove by now but... trust me... trust me that... i will goes to ur side.. withhin tis 10 years... whether its KL or USA... no its not important... what i carried with me will be ur love... the best gift tat i could receive in my entire life... I WILL LOVE U 4ever n ever my laopo!!!!! pls forgive me for all the mistake i had done in the past.. pls trust me tis once again... that i will not leave u no matter what happen.. because.. i know u are the my only.. n only partner tat i will be living on till the end of the time.. MUAKSS!!!! miss yea... once again;


HAPPY MONTHASORY AIAI !!!! ^^